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Three minutes can become an agonizing eternity
Alone in the bathroom at 4 A.M.
I hold that white plastic stick like a talisman,
Praying that the tiny spark of hope
That always resurfaces at times like this
Would not be extinguished once again
With tears of disappointment.
After years of dealing with a malfunctioning body
Flooded with deceitful hormones,
I understood that crushing emotion all too well.
I’m afraid to breathe,
Fighting back another wave of nausea,
Wondering if this could just be anxiety,
Maybe a touch of the flu,
Or perhaps something more…
My hands shake as the timer rings
And I glance down at the indicator,
Terrified of what I'll find.
In that moment,
Two pink lines showed me
That miracles can happen,
Even to someone like me.
~~~ This poem was written for the latest prompt from Poetic Bloomings in their poetic memoir series, asking us to write about a moment that changed our lives. The moment that I found out I was pregnant with my daughter Emily certainly qualifies.
I was diagnosed several years with polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS.) PCOS is a hormone disorder that affects an estimated 6-10% of all women. Besides causing infertility in women, PCOS can also cause other symptoms including high blood pressure, insulin resistance leading to diabetes, abnormal hair growth patterns, and obesity. PCOS is treatable with medications, diet, and exercise, but there is no cure. You can find more information about PCOS here.
|Emmy at 2 months|
|Emmy age 11|